The Journey

For many  years now I have struggled with my self-image and self-confidence.  Most of it all stems from the world's view of what is acceptable for an outward appearance.  I'm not tall, skinny or even remotely in healthy shape.  I am overweight and my insecurities grow everyday because of it.  I find it impossible to love myself because here God gave me this gift of life and a beautiful body and I've done nothing but abuse it.  But that time of abuse has come to an end.  In a couple days I start work with a personal trainer.  When I went in for my physical fitness assessment, I was catogorized as "Physical fitness intervention needed immediately!"  Really?!?!?!  I didn't need her help to figure that one out.  Why do you think I am at this gym to begin with lady??  I was kind enough to warn her there will be alot of complaining, sarcasm and I'm pretty sure I may not be very nice to her at first.  She said that was fine as long as I don't say I can't.  Truth is I don't have a choice.  If I don't make changes I will not live to an old age.  God has not put me here to waste my life feeling sorry for myself.  He has given me the will to be the Kim He has created and loved and cherishes.  And so begins the road to new life.  Hope you are ready for the ride.  It could definately be a wild one!!!